just for nothing

hi all. we meet once more. it has now become a compulsion for me to blog these days. infact when i am travelling i think of topics to blog about. but those r serious stuff. fundamentalism and attitude, idealism etc etc.

tot of writing something not heavy to read.

so the title. actually how many of us do things JUST FOR NOTHING.

all our actions r motivated by some thing or the other. we don't do any action involuntarily. Every single action is because of some motive or the other.

Disagree?????? Lets take a scenario. Ur friend is in need of help. U r in a position to do so.

U help ur friend.Why?????? Only because he is ur friend definitely not.Again disagree ?????????

U help him because in the future u might be in his shoes and he might be the person to bail u out. A favour returned. (Occurs in some cases).But the main motive is that U WANT ur friend to THINK good about u. this is the truth .If someone is gonna feel bad that we helped them ,or hate us because v helped them then sure we won't help them. Its only for gratitude and the FEEL GOOD FACTOR that v help others.

Its bad people.It is actually bad.But v get accolated for our selfless efforts. Irony.V r actually selfish people .But nobody realises. Think people, don't accept data.Format them into facts and information before processing them to interpret behaviour(I think i am gettin bit techy).

Just this at the end of this blog, don't do things because some one said u to do so, don't ever try to pretend goodness, there is no inherent or inherited or acquired good on this earth.The only good u can really do is being good to urself. Thinking positively , having atleast a bit of ego, developing thoughts , improving ur soul.etc etc.

Most i have mentioned r quite arguable. Though i stick to my vesion of it.

In the end its the only thing that matters. Though iwrite all this , i too am just ANOTHER person so i am not completely be able to be the ideal person i dream of being( one of the main criteria I consider ideal is being imperfect in kutti kutti things ).Eventually though i hope to be so.

Bye for now not for ever.

Till my next post

On the job.

long time no see.this is actually the reality.ppl at office have this great craze for blogging.most that i know r bloggers.got to read few of their blogs today.so inspired that i feel liking blogging right now. but wat to blog about.lots and lots that i can write.but got to be careful since now i have a wider audience.

it actually feels great to work in office.Initially i had my own misgivings, but now i am comfortable. Just when i have settled in ,and feel nice about my group of friends there, i am shifted.Thank goodness Sam is comin with me(4 those who r wondering sam is a girl).But then being shifted has it own advantages too.Lots of guys to sight adichify in viceroy building.
all that apart but again the familiar feeling of dreading into unknown territory creeps in.I dont understand why it works this way for me.

All people at office treat me like a kid. I dont mind it as long as they take me seriously when it comes to work.I havethis gift of blabbering and talkin nonsense that too in a kiddish way that even if i otufy some people they dont really mind it.I am happy about it.So wat does it feel like to work???????
A big ?????????????
Actually we had a sample portal to build.It wasn't tough .But wat was toough was that we had to complete in 2 weeks. Takin off sat & sun thats 10 days.(inclusive of vinayaka chaturti).it was really like hell.we worked inhuman hoursa.Hardly 2 months into work and i am returning by 1'o clock at nite.It was crazy .on top of this we had to give demo to our senior executive.
All in all it was a nightmare fortnite.But it was also great workin.coz i was able to do wat was assigned to me.More than that i did it such tat it worked which was an achievement by itself. Pushin aside modesty, my work was done by 3 ppl in hte other team.
So i am really happy bout it.So as long as u work ,not minding the ungodly hours its alrite.But if u r want a life exclusive of office,not a workaholic,then its good .Infact great . i am not scaring anybody, but its true that all the people who work in software get used to it in the end.
i get reminded of one song at this pt.it goes like this....

I tried so hard ,but lost it all.
in the END it doesnt even matter.
(Linkin Park)

So wat is life if full of care,
and we have no time to stand and stare(Wordsworth i guess,not too sure)

Kutty things inlife should matter a lot than the BIG things in life.
Thats my pt people.
Enjoy small things in life.Big thingswill automatically fall in place.

GOD and faith.

GOD who is god.A person, a spirit, an embodiment of justice,epitome of mercy ,an immortal soul, the essence of goodness,or all of the above.Maybe or maynot be.God to me is simply FAITH.A faith that wont let evil harm you, a faith that will make you conscientous(because of belief that otherwise u might be punished) ,a faith that will prepare u for the tasks ahead(for fear of failure and faith that hard work leads to success).So faith is everything.Faith is in short GOD.god is not a creation of humans because faith is inherent in humans.i.e.God exists in all humans.When something preexists in humans how can it be a creation.Infact it cannot even be called a discovery because always there's faith inside us.We might shun it, overlook it,pretend it doesn't exist,might even convince ourselves that it never existed.But that hope never fails.It's methods may fail, but hope never fails.Ofcourse that is under hte constraint faith in a true cause never fails.Merciless killings in the name of god,bribes to God in return for granting favours never wins the heart of god.

God doesn't expect ANYTHING from humans.not flowers,not prayers,not animal sacrifices,not cash in undiyal.He gives what he feels we ought to have.Not because of our offerings.God is not for bribe, otherwise not even the richest can afford him.What humans do for venduthal is not needed by god but just a way of saying to one who gave us everything.its the only method known to humans,sacrificing material things which according to man is vital than simple care for fellow humans.Even if u don't go to temples or churches or mosques God is there in u .cause u have faith, faith is GOD. cause god is not a politician who does things in return for hte flowers that is offered to him.i am not saying that we shouldn't offer flowers to god but rather what i am saying is that by doing so,we shouldn't think that god will favour our wishes.god favours our wishes if and when we deserve it.his ways r not understandable,becuse even faith s not understandable.

All i ask of people who read this is just this.U have faith in ur mom ,dad,friends,relatives,other beings,but why don't u have the faith in urself, in the GOD inside u,When u can believe,the idols in the sanctum can work wonders, why don't u trust the santorum inside ur heart.GOD never leaves us, its us who choose to ignore him.plz trust urself,who knows even ur acknowledgement of him might work wonders.Never stop beliving,never stop trusting, GOD and ur SELF.

life to me

life to me is very preciousnot in the sense that i am afraid that i will drop dead the next minuteits more serious than thatI hve never taken life easilyEven when its easy i wiill look for ulterior motivesmaybe i am paranoid but i firmly beleive that when things go too well for ur own good there's something siniter lurking behindwell its a crazy thought actually,and maybe the effect of the novels i read.

i always feel that love is crazy.coz its not definite.what we think now changes over time and space.so why think what we think now.thats maybe because people r impulsive.most don't think.they act to situations.because when u start thinking inevitably there's something strange lurking over.and people love being simple.they dont want compications they don't undersand in life.i am different in the sense that i love complications in my life.if life's normal for me,i feel immensely disturbed that something's gonna happen.when life's not normal ijust feel at peace that it cannot get worse than this.

so ultimately i realize that i never feel like being happy, coz i fear my happines will be short lived and futile.so i prefer being unhappy.its not only me but most deep down are like this,but don't yet realize it.i dont know what else to write so i conclude with this.

to lose what u have

life is never easy.atleast i don't think so.its not because i am cynic, its because life's like that.to have what u believe to be the best in the world , a great job, a great career , admiration of all, only to discover its slipping through ur hands before u know it.God's ways are not accountable or understandable, why does he give sooooo much happiness when he knows its going to be short lived, when he knows the pain that comes as a esult is much more terrible.
Its easy to live losing things that u don't have, (coz u never knew u had it in the first place),but to lose something after u get it,and before u r able to enjoy it even for a bit is terrible, its leaves totally unprepared, totallly confused, totally exhausted, totally lifeless.

my soulmate

This blog is a special tribute to my special friend. This friend of mine is the rarest amongst the rare.She is my sanity.The gentle touch of her hand, the smile on her face,the way she idolizes me, her sweet nature, the way she thinks everything with her heart not her head, everything about her is amazing.

I have never seen a soul so pure, not even the lightest pretense,how she accomades everyone(even those who are not true to her) in her heart, how she always places others interest before her own, never hurting others (even by mistake) the most purest and amazing human i have had the opputunity to meet.She doesn't embarrass me more when i am already embarrassed,always defends me (even when i am wrong ) most caring. Above all she doesn't have the slightest clue that she is all this and much more.She is not this way because its the best way to be, she is like this because she doesn't know how else to be.Her motives are never shadowed with fame ,glory, reconition,reward .Do her wrong, she repays you back with twice the kindness that people don't deserve & do her good she thinks the world of you.

My precious little friend, whom i want for myself, my sweet support, my weakness, and above all my life.

She is Jeevitha for me.

reasons why i created this blog

hi everyone,

Let us have a small introduction about myself.I am a spirited, enthusiastic INDIVIDUAL. I make my own decision and control my own life.I love reading novels and listening to music and i also collect tickets(though its a habit and not a hobby).I take pleasure both in the presence and absence of people.I love clothes and chocolates.

I am funloving at the same time i am a serious minded individual .I think a lot and i am self analysing.Since i feel my thoughts are overflowing and since this blog space provides me my outlet i have choosen to become a blogger.I want to preserve my anonymity while at the same time reach out to people.I am a contrast to myself(my outer self) most of the the times, and also like million others i need emotional balance which is why this blog was created