Monday, June 20, 2005

GOD and faith.

GOD who is god.A person, a spirit, an embodiment of justice,epitome of mercy ,an immortal soul, the essence of goodness,or all of the above.Maybe or maynot be.God to me is simply FAITH.A faith that wont let evil harm you, a faith that will make you conscientous(because of belief that otherwise u might be punished) ,a faith that will prepare u for the tasks ahead(for fear of failure and faith that hard work leads to success).So faith is everything.Faith is in short GOD.god is not a creation of humans because faith is inherent in humans.i.e.God exists in all humans.When something preexists in humans how can it be a creation.Infact it cannot even be called a discovery because always there's faith inside us.We might shun it, overlook it,pretend it doesn't exist,might even convince ourselves that it never existed.But that hope never fails.It's methods may fail, but hope never fails.Ofcourse that is under hte constraint faith in a true cause never fails.Merciless killings in the name of god,bribes to God in return for granting favours never wins the heart of god.
God doesn't expect ANYTHING from humans.not flowers,not prayers,not animal sacrifices,not cash in undiyal.He gives what he feels we ought to have.Not because of our offerings.God is not for bribe, otherwise not even the richest can afford him.What humans do for venduthal is not needed by god but just a way of saying to one who gave us everything.its the only method known to humans,sacrificing material things which according to man is vital than simple care for fellow humans.Even if u don't go to temples or churches or mosques God is there in u .cause u have faith, faith is GOD. cause god is not a politician who does things in return for hte flowers that is offered to him.i am not saying that we shouldn't offer flowers to god but rather what i am saying is that by doing so,we shouldn't think that god will favour our wishes.god favours our wishes if and when we deserve it.his ways r not understandable,becuse even faith s not understandable.
All i ask of people who read this is just this.U have faith in ur mom ,dad,friends,relatives,other beings,but why don't u have the faith in urself, in the GOD inside u,When u can believe,the idols in the sanctum can work wonders, why don't u trust the santorum inside ur heart.GOD never leaves us, its us who choose to ignore him.plz trust urself,who knows even ur acknowledgement of him might work wonders.Never stop beliving,never stop trusting, GOD and ur SELF.

Tuesday, June 14, 2005

life to me

life to me is very preciousnot in the sense that i am afraid that i will drop dead the next minuteits more serious than thatI hve never taken life easilyEven when its easy i wiill look for ulterior motivesmaybe i am paranoid but i firmly beleive that when things go too well for ur own good there's something siniter lurking behindwell its a crazy thought actually,and maybe the effect of the novels i read.
i always feel that love is crazy.coz its not definite.what we think now changes over time and space.so why think what we think now.thats maybe because people r impulsive.most don't think.they act to situations.because when u start thinking inevitably there's something strange lurking over.and people love being simple.they dont want compications they don't undersand in life.i am different in the sense that i love complications in my life.if life's normal for me,i feel immensely disturbed that something's gonna happen.when life's not normal ijust feel at peace that it cannot get worse than this.
so ultimately i realize that i never feel like being happy, coz i fear my happines will be short lived and futile.so i prefer being unhappy.its not only me but most deep down are like this,but don't yet realize it.i dont know what else to write so i conclude with this.

Wednesday, June 08, 2005

to lose what u have

life is never easy.atleast i don't think so.its not because i am cynic, its because life's like that.to have what u believe to be the best in the world , a great job, a great career , admiration of all, only to discover its slipping through ur hands before u know it.God's ways are not accountable or understandable, why does he give sooooo much happiness when he knows its going to be short lived, when he knows the pain that comes as a esult is much more terrible.
Its easy to live losing things that u don't have, (coz u never knew u had it in the first place),but to lose something after u get it,and before u r able to enjoy it even for a bit is terrible, its leaves totally unprepared, totallly confused, totally exhausted, totally lifeless.

Friday, June 03, 2005

my soulmate

This blog is a special tribute to my special friend. This friend of mine is the rarest amongst the rare.She is my sanity.The gentle touch of her hand, the smile on her face,the way she idolizes me, her sweet nature, the way she thinks everything with her heart not her head, everything about her is amazing.
I have never seen a soul so pure, not even the lightest pretense,how she accomades everyone(even those who are not true to her) in her heart, how she always places others interest before her own, never hurting others (even by mistake) the most purest and amazing human i have had the opputunity to meet.She doesn't embarrass me more when i am already embarrassed,always defends me (even when i am wrong ) most caring. Above all she doesn't have the slightest clue that she is all this and much more.She is not this way because its the best way to be, she is like this because she doesn't know how else to be.Her motives are never shadowed with fame ,glory, reconition,reward .Do her wrong, she repays you back with twice the kindness that people don't deserve & do her good she thinks the world of you.
My precious little friend, whom i want for myself, my sweet support, my weakness, and above all my life.
She is Jeevitha for me.

Thursday, June 02, 2005

reasons why i created this blog

hi everyone,
Let us have a small introduction about myself.I am a spirited, enthusiastic INDIVIDUAL. I make my own decision and control my own life.I love reading novels and listening to music and i also collect tickets(though its a habit and not a hobby).I take pleasure both in the presence and absence of people.I love clothes and chocolates.
I am funloving at the same time i am a serious minded individual .I think a lot and i am self analysing.Since i feel my thoughts are overflowing and since this blog space provides me my outlet i have choosen to become a blogger.I want to preserve my anonymity while at the same time reach out to people.I am a contrast to myself(my outer self) most of the the times, and also like million others i need emotional balance which is why this blog was created